YANA The Movie
You Are Not Alone
A 2012 documentary featuring Black gay men speaking about their struggles with the factors contributing to their mental health destabilization, including re-enactments covering familial acceptance and identity denial/rejection, religiously fueled homophobia, sexual abuse, bullying and cyberbullying, contracting HIV, and growing old as a Black gay man.
Antoine B. Craigwell, Producer and Executive Producer
Jeffery Gardere, Ph.D - Co-Executive Producer
Stanley Bennett Clay - Director & Re-Enactments
A Black gay man dealing with depression should know that it is treatable, and he need not suffer in silence; he is not alone.
— YANA
In the documentary “You Are Not Alone”, Black gay men are telling their stories, are breaking an inherent taboo of silence in the Black community and speaking out about their struggles with depression: the circumstances which led to their downward spiral, how they lived with it, and more significantly, how they overcame and survived it. The documentary features interviews with mental health professionals and religious leaders who place the many personal stories in perspective and with the work of writer and director Stanley Bennett Clay, those experiences were re-enacted - brought out of the shadows of silence into the light of examination and healing.
Through sharing their stories, Black gay men are intent on encouraging other Black gay men who find themselves stuck in a racial, discriminatory and homophobic rut or loop, and who feel powerless and hopeless, that there is hope, that they are not isolated in their experiences, it is shared by many, and that they could rise above and achieve their full potential.
You Are Not Alone explores the challenges to a Black boy's sense of self, his identity, who he is - when he is physically and psychologically abused by authority figures who force him to conform to their narrow homophobic definitions of masculinity; to his personhood being violated by sexual abuse and exploitation. It delves into the unspoken mists of self-hate and the results of denial of self that is influenced by religious leaders demonizing a Black gay man for simply being attracted to or loving another like himself; for who he is, his struggle to find acceptance in the world, and in so doing, of himself.
You Are Not Alone opens Church and Mosque doors, revealing the origins of homophobia and the efforts by pastors and imams to offer healing, acceptance and belonging. The documentary lays bare the effects of ostracism, which caused many to be unconcerned about themselves, contract HIV and suffer further stigma and discrimination. In a world obsessed with youth and appearance, it takes a look at an as yet unspoken or unexamined issue: growing old as a Black gay man - the isolation, feelings of abandonment, loneliness and desperation which can overtake many.
If, by what I'm doing, a Black gay man could be stopped from killing himself, then my job is done; his healing begins.
— YANA
I Am Not Alone @ The Table
I Am Not Alone @ The Table is a gathering for LGBTQ+ people of color, who, for estrangement from family or in a new city/neighborhood, are likely to be alone during upcoming Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year holidays. DBGM convenes them over a meal to experience belonging and community. “I’m Not Alone” also provides an opportunity for community members to feel a part of the wider community.
Poster of the 2020 Pre-Thanksgiving Virtual Cooking I Am Not Alone @ The Table.